No use wearing your heart on your sleeve.
I'm just afraid to hear you say, "go".
This sucks.
Bye bitches.

dare you to move

I'm fucking deprived of sleep -- bad.

Puffy eyes with rings and bags are showing.

Pimple explosions are coming.

I can totally own Kuwait w the oil production on my nose.

All for the big Os!! (and no it's not orgasm tyvm)

Science prac, chem, geog, english, and math p1's down.

7 more papers to go and then it all goes into flames, literally.

For the first time in idk-how-many years, I think I can pass math! :D

& it's the Os this time round! :D x2

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That is, if paper 2 dont pull me down.

And SS too.

I think I suicide if there are Us and 9s.

(which might be possible for math and C.science _l_)

death of an old old man

It is always fine to fight when you are going to lose everything anyway, and that was how it was four years ago. But now we're going to win. It is so different when you are going to win. If I die now I lose fifty years of life, and I dont want to lose that. I'll lose anything except that because that would be all the things I want to do and all the things I want to see. Like going home sometimes. Like walking through a wood. Like pouring out a drink from a bottle. Like looking forward to week ends and like being alive every hour every day every year for fifty years. If I die now I will miss all that, and I will miss everything else. I will miss the things that I dont know about. I think those are really the things I am frightened of missing. I think the reason I do not want to die is because of the things I hope will happen. Yes, that's right. I'm sure that's right. Point a revolver at a tramp, at a wet shivering tramp on the side of the road and say, "I'm going to shoot you," and he will cry, "Dont shoot. Please dont shoot." The tramp clings to life because of the things he hopes will happen. I am clinging to it for the same reason; but I have clung for so long now that I cannot hold on much longer. Soon I will have to let go. It is like hanging over the edge of a cliff, that's what it's like; and I've been hanging on too long now, holding on to the top of the cliff with my fingers, not being able to pull myself back up, with my fingers getting more and more tired, beginning to hurt and to ache, so that I know that sooner or later I will have to let go. I dare not cry out for help; that is one thing I dare not do; so I go on hanging over the side of this cliff, and as I hang I keep kicking a little with my feet against the side of the cliff, trying desperately to find a foothold, but it is steep and smooth like the side of a ship, and there isnt any foothold. I am kicking now, that's what I am doing. I am kicking against the smooth side of the cliff, and there isnt any foothold. Soon I shall have to let go. The longer I hang on the more certain I am of that, and so each hour, each day, each night, each week, I become more and more frightened. Four years ago I wasnt hanging over the edge like this. I was running about in the field above, and although I knew that there was a cliff somewhere and that I might fall over it, I did not mind. Three years ago it was the same, and so was two years ago. But now it is different.

knowing me, knowing you

Oh fuck it x a million billion times. _l_
O levels Phy/Chem Practical's screwed.
-miffed-
20% yes?
Fuck it.

Nxt paper's Chemistry which I've been failing since 14.
Die bitches!!!

Everybody's going on hiatus due to Os and there's no more blogs out there to read gahhhhh. D:

A lie, a countless, twisted lie

Did a stupid personality quiz. And I'm...

The Idealist

You are a creative person with a great imagination. You enjoy living in your own inner world.
Open minded and accepting, you strive for harmony in your important relationships.
It takes a long time for people to get to know you. You are hesitant to let people get close to you.
But once you care for someone, you do everything you can to help them grow and develop.

In love, you tend to have high (and often unrealistic) standards.
You are very sensitive. You tend to have intense feelings.

At work, you need to do something that expresses your personal values.
You would make an excellent writer, psychologist, or artist.

How you see yourself: Unselfish, empathetic, and spiritual

When other people don't get you, they see you as: Unrealistic, naive, and weak.
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tsktsktsk.
true to a certain extent i guess.

urban jerkiez

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Yeah so this is what me and Maha's engaged in during english when Mdm Tan's xplaining bout Chester's 3 "digusting horrible gross" mistakes in once single sentence.

Obviously the chio one in the 1st pic is done by ME and the second one by Maha.

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ok we were just bored.

swt 6teen!!

Ohkayyyyy.

I'm 16. Big deal.

Eh-

No.

Wait.

It IS a big deal.

My long-awaited NC16 muuuviez!!

Anw, thanks for that surprise when y'all saw me in my most unglam moment huh.

I'm happy my cake's Doraemon and NOT Thomas!

Sorry if I made you feel slighted.

Something's wrong with my fucking phone right now. _l_

Pictures (of my cakes only dont worry) up another day.

**Am I thankful to have you @ the top of the world w me.

For you and me, the sun will shine someday.

Maybe aft all these, I should thank you alot, for changing me into a better person.
Bcuz of you, I became more mild-tempered, more withdrawn, quieter.
I've learnt not to trust others easily, which I have always been doing so.
I've learnt to take things in my stride, come what may.
I've learnt to treasure my true, real, friends.
I've learnt to accept all kinds of people and the way they have to be sometimes.
I became more tolerant towards others.
Most of all, I think I've learnt to really love again.