everything to lose

Today was a drag even before seeing some bitch bitching on the computer. fuck yourself and gnd nigger. _l_

i hate school.
i hate that nigger.
i hate all the people that locked Grey.
i hate my eyebags.
i hate everything we study.
i hate 2.4 trail runs.
i hate people who tells me everything's ok when it's not.
i hate chasing assignments from other people.
i hate that i cannot read storybooks fast now.
i hate it that there's no ingredients for me to bake.
i hate the common tests that are around the corner.
i hate to fake my smiles so i dont give a fuck that others say im "dao" when i am pissed.
i hate it that there's no lunch everyday when i get home.
i hate the recent piece of composition i wrote the other day which is so damn cliche.
i hate to call people people - it's like you stopping yourself from calling them something that sounds worse.

_l_

big fuck (no valerie, i'm not calling you)

on a lighter note, that fucker's moving out and im getting a new four-poster bed.

...

wonder if you still care, if you do, why are you doing this to me?
why cant you just accept it?
my wasted heart will still love you.