and aft all the blood, you still owe me

oh god. just fuck off and die la bitch!!! yayaya, just come sucking up to me and ask me questions when you need or want something.

hey to the 3 of you, i didnt know we're such goddesses. ;D

at times i dont know what you take me for. although i feel hurt at times by your words or the way you treat me, i dont show it, i dont want to ruin us. i feel like im just a stand-by to you, but you're not, you're not just any normal friend to me. i'll always stand by you no matter what. <3you.

one day, just one day. i'll give back all the fucking pain to the world.
just a little schadenfreude on my part, not like you suckerz will understand.

gawwwwd you seriously need braces

Forgot to add.
F&N is driving me crazy.
Choo's a lousy photographer and my food looks so dull and unappetising I cant stop feeling guilty whenever I type "gives more colour" for practical evaluation.

Me: Mrs Choo let me take la, your hands trembling! *reaches for camera*
Mrs Choo: Nonono! This is school property I dont want to be held responsible when you break it!
Me: But then you take until so blur! Not nice!
Mrs Choo: *shrieks* That one testing only! DONT TOUCH! NOW GO AWAYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!
Me: _l_

chenmama, zhoumama, wengmama, houmama! <3

8pm madness @ interchange

Queky shoes & trashy old school shoes

Wan1ingggg!

on the verge of sneezing [i think? :DD]

no balloon! ]:

i have ugly curly wurly hair here! D:<

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xoxo

Omgomgomg i got the bestest friendzzz in the w.w.world and i bet they're even best-ier than your bestiest friendz! [: those that you can laugh @ and with, dont feel the slightest shame during your most unglam and embarassing moments w them, get fucking pissed off @ and scold+discriminate you so fucking hard and torment you every single day though it actually acts as reminders and the wish for you to change when you do the wrong things in life, and lovin' all the funny moments when each of us fall down. [[:

V: I didnt know you still hate her so much!

W: I dont, I just anyhow pick on someone lo.

M: We're like some girl gang.

J: Yeh and the nxt thing we'll do is strip her and play happy slapping.

M: No, she'll probably strip herself.

J: Cheap whore.

krrrk _l_

wow wee i lost my fucking phone yesterday!
bet i just made some losers happy B)
and this bloody dishonest cheebye thief, i hope you get your damn retribution.

panicked and cried cos i really lost something, couldnt care less bout the phone itself. fuck.
:/
anw, thank you JOEYNG, SEANCHUA, VALERIETAN, ANDREALIM & HOWYILING.

oh, and chinese was a stupid fuck today.
_l_

my name is high maintenance

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xoxo

hello peepz im back with no A1s, 2 F9s and plenty of in betweens and there goes my hope of a new phone though i will not give up whining and pestering dad oh and i am totally NOT fucking prepared for chinese O level nxt week and im digging my own grave cos i cant get myself to go to the damn chinese lessons after school zzz photo-taking tmrw and our props will be zee coolest keh tyvm!

almost caught

Lovers, it was said, were connected by invinsible threads tied to the bones of their ribcages, so that the tiniest tug could alert one to the approach of the other. Lovers, like some strange species of insect, developed a hundred antennae for the purpose of responding to a single caller. In a room filled with sound, they caught each other's faintest whispers; in a room of continuous activity, each noted the other's smallest movements of head, eye, lip. Lovers claimed their own universe, a cosmology of two.


excerpts from
the teardrop story woman

...
One week anniversary also nice to celebrate meh.
Tsk.

You are a smelly cunt.
Hmph!

sugarush!

_(guess who!)_ here got drunk after half a cup of freakin' BAILEY'S choc mint.

;DDD

_(guess who!)_ said slurred "dont be a clown. im NOT drunk. i can still walk straight and stop trying to test me by asking me to walk here walk there okeh!", at the same time swinging both hands up and down and laughing at nothing.

...

You almost always pick the best times
To drop the worst lines
You almost made me cry again this time
Another false alarm
Red flashing lights
Well this time I’m not going to watch myself die

I think I made it a game to play your games
And let myself cry
I buried myself alive on the inside
So I could shut you out
And let you go away for a long time

I guess it’s ok I puked the day away
I guess it’s better you trapped yourself in your own way

fags and faggots

very moody these few days.
why are you like, totally ruining my already-ruined life?!
i cant believe that you've been telling your friends fucking nonsense about me.
life's getting shittier by the day.
fuck you _l_

I'm sorry guys, esp to the 3 of you and to you too, J.

whine up

I WANT A NEW PHONEEEEEEEEEE.
Pa hurry up come back from Myanmar leh :/

Mo already wants me to start buying winter wear for the trip in december which is not even confirmed -.-
Sis's gonna be decked out in an all-pastelpink outfit. Ew[?]

why isnt anybody online!?
i should stop blogging -.-

What it takes I dont care.

Mo: Not like you'll ever read this but maybe, someday.

But I got my reasons.
Ma, I'm sorry.

Happy Mother's Day.
You asked me what I am so nice to you today for this year, and I just smiled.
Bcos I know this is going to be the second last time I can do anything well anymore.
Nvm.
Hope you liked your gift. [:
I love you.

Cant wait for Father's Day!

J(anonymous).

Sometimes I feel as if I should have testosterone in my body instead of oestrogen.
Then I can sit with my legs open without people tsk-ing me or getting piaked by mo and doing lots of things girls shouldnt do.
Damn trapped.
Will consider going for a sex change when I'm of age and be gay cos I still love men.
They're hot most of the time anyway.

Ooooh and I FUCKING HATE MALE CHAUVINISTS.
Just my luck to meet 1 on the way home today.
Ccb. Go to hell bastard. _l_

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I got the cash, I got the links.
I got my whole life to waste.
Why not?

Life:
Born -> study -> work -> get married -> have family/babies -> die

We eventually die.
We. eventually. die.
Why not take the shortcut?
...

runaway world

music: Making April - Roses and Butterflies

i need sleep.
eyebags are so bad they look like external sockets.

just read a couple of blogs that has tags/posts with extremely bad spelling.
pretty good source of entertainment for me, who's been feeling very mean the whole day.

earlier this afternoon, on the bus:
Guy: Is this seat empty?
Me: Yes, and this one will be if you sit down.

ha. i swear, he turned scarlet on the spot, moved away and didnt look back at all.
cant stop smirking though i felt guilty after he got off the bus.
ahhh.
but who cares.

everybody's being a bitch nowadays.
including you.
yes, you.
nosy little fucker. _l_

Sloth.

#01.

"I do. I hate your boyfriend too. Because he dumped you."
I laughed.. "Dont hate him either. You shouldnt hate anybody."
"I cant help it. I have to."
"No," I told her, 'you dont have to. If you start by hating one or two people, you wont be able to stop. Pretty soon you'll hate a hundred people."
"A zillion?"
"Even a zillion. A little hatred goes a long, long way. It grows and grows. And it's hungry."
"You keep feeding it more and more people, and the more it gets, the more it wants. It's never satisfied. And pretty soon it squeezes all the love out of your heart" - I pointed to her heart; she looked down at her chest - "and all you'll have left is a hateful heart."

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#02.

I ran after him, stood at the edge, peering into the dark waters. I could see a shadow moving, and I knew that it wasnt Arnold anymore, it was someone, or something, else, and I wanted to jump in but I was afraid because I knew that once I entered the water I would drown and become a moving shadow myself.
That's when the alarm went off. I awoke clenched and sweating. I felt relieved and not relieved, cause I knew that the dark moving shadow was Perry, and Perry was Ondine and Ondine was Perry, and to prolong a dream moment that was both delicious and dreadful, I chewed time like a wad of bubble gum and stretched it across the darkness all the way to dawn, when the light at the edge of my window told me I was too late to greet the sunrise.

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#03.

"Ah, yes, the answer. Live today. There."
"Live today.'
"Yes. Live today. Not yesterday. Not tomorrow. Just today. Inhabit your moments. Dont rent them out to tomorrow. Do you know what you're doing when you spend a moment wondering how things are going to turn out with Perry?"
"What am I doing?"
"You're cheating yourself out of today. Today is calling to you, trying to get your attention, but you're stuck on tomorrow, and today trickles away like water down a drain. You wake up the next morning and that today that you wasted is gone forever. It's now yesterday. Some of those moments may have had wonderful things in store for you, but now you'll never know."
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excerpts from
love,
stargirl

2nd function se7en

charlie brown says only lonely people eat peanut butter.
and really lonely people get peanut butter stuck on the roofs of their mouths.